She was not sure what to do… Did she need help, she didn’t know. She
had no options…rather she had options, but not the strength to choose the right
one. Was she worried? Was she Upset? Was she miserable? What was it that was
doing the rounds inside her thoughts, she couldn’t guess. Were these thoughts
worth anything? She knew nothing, she felt…
Slowly, she tried calming herself. Her soul was trying to rest while
her mind worked hard. She knew, this was not the time to be confused, but to
make a decision… And, once a decision was made, she wouldn’t be able to do a
rewind. Hence, whatever choice she selected, she had to be sure that it was
fool proof. As it involved many lives…
Strange, she decided to go with none of the options that she was
offered. Not that she didn’t believe in those options. But, something in her,
made her feel that if she was to choose from one of the proposed option, it
would have involved a huge change in somebody else’s life. And at this point,
she didn’t wanted to jeopardise it…She felt, it would be wrong to the other…
Frankly, she very well knew that the way she was perceiving the impact of the
options were wrong. If discussed with the other, it would be discarded or
ridiculed as STUPIDITY…
But, then…she grew up with loads of insecurity and above that with
an enormous bunch of Ego and Complex. Her egoistic mind didn’t let her to make
a choice where she would have had to pressurise someone to accept a choice for
her sake. She felt, the foundation for any such decision should never be a helplessness.
She felt, such decisions, If not Today, someday would bring regrets…Literally, “She
didn’t want a Dead End to be reason to take a detour”…
An unusual calmness started enveloping her… She was reaching to a
conclusion…she was almost clear on what she should do. She knew, if the other
knew, what was going thru her mind, she might get thrashed down…She felt sorry
for doing this…But, then afterall, it was all for love…love for her ‘life’….she
could never do anything to tie her life down…to anything.
She walked in with no more confusions…With a strong mind, she
finalised it…The determined heart said she was right…And she was going for it…
For her decision…
3 comments:
I hope her decision brought her happiness.
You are confusing the reader...
@ DWriter... What more can a confused mind do!!!
@ KParthasarathi... Hope so Dost, even I hope the same...
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