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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Done with Hibernation...

Atlast, I am back in full spring...hope, I would be more regular in boring you all from today...I would see to it, that I am there around to eat your brains out and put you into deep thoughts... Thoughts like "WHY THE HELL AM I READING THIS"..."IS THIS REAL..."..."AM I SO UNLUCKY TO GO THROUGH ALL THIS" and so on...I am sure, you should be wondering, how come...The answer is simple...I AM BACK after my hibernation of a few weeks...

Alas, my hibernation period is over... I am back into the mechanical world of LIFE...Wake early in the morning (which i really hate), Dress Up for work (which is horrible), Drive through the traffic (Ha, Terrible..), Reach your office (all hopes gone), Work (like a sleeping log,uhm???Naahh, Work as if you have no work tomorrow...)... Eat your food (Beware, bring your own lunch, else your wallet would be empty and the Cafeteria guy's wallet would fill up...) Work again (looking forward for the last minute of work) and then again a horrible drive back...but this time with lots of expectation to have a great sleep...Thanks to Mom, that after reaching home, I don't have to worry of Cooking...Atleast after reaching home, I can have food ASAP and then jump into my sweet bed to wake again to the horrible tone of the Clock ALARM...

To be short and sweet, "I am no more Jobless"...hehe! I got a job...uhmm...Thanks Thanks...for your Congrats...lol!!!...and if you were not thinking of Congratulating, now you have the chance...Congratulate mee...Ok, Thank you...Yes, as I mentioned a few days back..All that happens, happen for good...Even if I got redundant, it was for the better...So, what happened is, I am back with my old company, but in a different department, with a better position and with more responsibilties...Thanks to Multi Tasking...I proved wrong the "Moral of the phrase", JACK OF ALL TRADE, MASTER OF NONE...being a JACK helped me get this job...This proves Learning and and trying to learn more would always help you..If not today, some day it would come handy to you...Atleast it's true for me...

So, What's the best thing of all this...Now, I don't have to worry...I don't have to miss the happiness of 25ths...Yes, 25th...Now, you should be wondering, what this 25th stand for...Come on, you should be guessing that...That's my salary date friends...Yeah, I can yet again look forward to 25ths of every month...lol, thats the day when my bank account looks COOL with fresh earned salary enhances the beauty of my account...Ha, on those days, how I love to enjoy the wonderful view I see when I gaze at the monitor of the ATM machine... It looks so full...so full with the 'Balance in Account', with not just Zero's but also some digits before that...Wouldn't you hate not seeing those digits ahead of those Zero'es...

That's when I realise and relish the beauty of Zero...uhm...Have you ever thought of the instances that one could love a Zero...I think, I would love a Zero, when its shown on the amount of Calories I consume a day...I wouldn't want to see another digit before that for sure... I would love to see a single Zero, when I search for Traffic Fines/Penalties and would hate the same Zero, if accompanied by more Zero'es with another digit as the Leader...grrr... etc etc etc...I can quote many such examples against and for Zero'es... But then the Zero / Zero'es with a digit ahead of them in our Bank Account Balance would be the most pleasant instance of all...it just washes off all the tiring days and brings in a smile in your face...Ha, that's Money... Your Hard-earned Money...Yes, that's the point...It's not just money...you worked hard for that...and that makes it more dear to you...
Sooo, as usual, I started from A and reached Z... I just came to let you all know, that I am back...and see, I started giving philosphies on what...Of all the things in the world...I gave you a lecture on Zero...??? God, help meeeeeee....Why am I so intelligent, that I have so much to say on anything and everything...
God, why did you make me sooooo ...lol!!!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Struck by the most dreaded weapon...Is it???

You must be wondering, where have I been, for the past few days...Why there wasn't any blogs or news from me...Why no more of those boring stories...Why this long silence...Not bcoz I had nothing to say...Not bcoz I was devoid of any subject / topic to blabber on...Rather the past week could have been the most busiest day in my blog...but then, still I stayed silent...Why???Was it that I didn't feel like getting on to the system and type something...Was it bcoz of that lazy feeling that was not giving any mood to confine myself to do something...You will know the reason at the end of this blog...


If you remember, just a week back, I told you, that for the time being, I got saved...but not this time...If it was 6 last time, this time it was 5 of us...who got the GET OUT letter...uhm..true..how much ever sympathetically and caringly they give us the bad news, the one word meaning for the whole stuff is GET OUT....lol!!! Something that I have been fearing for past few months finally happened...Yes...Finally, I too got struck by the most dreaded weapon of 2009...Recession...I too got that "love letter"...The letter informing me that my valuable service is no longer required by my company...They can manage the work without me...The Redundancy Letter...It was something that I was expecting from more than six months...not becoz I had no faith in my working ability...but bcoz I knew what was the current situation of the world and market...Today or tomorrow, when the company can no longer bear the expenses of salaries of all its staff, the company has to say NO to some...and somehow, luck would play its trick here, to decide who would stay back and who wouldn't...Luck helped me till last week...but not any more...Luck left me for that one moment and the letter got prepared with my name ON...


When this fear of losing job started, I used to think...what would I do, if I got that dreaded letter...I used to tell my mom, "I would faint..I would cry...I might go into a depression..."...Not because I loved my job...lol!!!..but because of the consequences it might have...With a big loan to be paid off...jobless meant moneyless...moneyless means Installment defaults...and that meant TENSION...grrr...I just was scared every moment, feared WHAT IF....but when it really happened, to be frank, suddenly a smile came across my lips...I just lturned to the other Unlucky guy from my office and we both started laughing...God knows, why we did that...but when the BOSS was very sympathetically saying sorry for giving us such a bad news, we both were laughing...and I said..."Hey, never mind..You don't have to be sorry...It's not your fault...Just keep in mind..If any job openings come across you, please let us know..."...That made all five of us laugh out...and we shaked hands and left the room...We were Job Less now...

Suddenly, I felt a big pound of weight going off from my heart...I felt much lighter at heart....I felt just the opposite of what I expected...I was calm and cool...Then I knew, what mental tension I have been going through last few months due to this fear of losing job...and now..no longerdoes I have any such fear...I no longer had any job to loose...I was cool...haaaaa...!!! The moment brought in a big feeling of Optimism in me...I have been working for quite some years now...I need some rest now...and the best part was...As the Redundancy compensation, the company would be paying 2 months salary...Sooo....????

"I am currently on a 2 months paid vacation..(so I doesn't have to worry about my loan installment for next 2 months) ... I am planning for a job change (U see, that's pride, lol!!!)...I am sure, within this two months, I would get a good job..a better one...that job which I would love to do...So why worry....(That is "Grapes are Sour", hehe!!!)...With this optimistic thought, I happily came home with the most dreaded letter, no longer dreaded for me...It was a boon that took off all the tension I had for months...I knew, if God closes one door on you, not 9 but 1000 other doors would open for you...You just need to find the right door and go in...I am just going to do that...Find the right door..."


So, even after being so optimistic..then why this silence for the past week...Dont worry friends..I wasn't on any depression...I was just enjoying the rest period I got, the unexpected vacation...I was Sleeping my head out...staying awake late night watching movies that I missed, not worrying to keep the alarm ON for the next day early morning...Let me just relish these personal treats for the first few days before I start again on the Job Hunt and get back to my old routine.....