With a smile…

I don’t know how I survived the moments of uncertainty. When my whole family was going through the fear of losing our most favourite… I was trying to normalise myself. Was wondering should I go to the disco or the movies, take a massage or a spa… I had to do something to take my mind off what was bothering me. I very well realise that it was running away. Running away from the reality and it was clearly not me.

Today was extremely crucial day for all of us. With a weak body but a smiling face, my appups was all set for the test. The doctors had different opinion on if it should be done. Two options were to either go ahead and take the risk and try to find out what is it that is destroying his health day by day or just keep experimenting with every medicines without knowing what are you trying to treat. The family decided to take the risk… I cried when my aunt revealed to me on the phone, “Baby, we should take this risk. This person who is here now, is not our Daddy. And we wont be able to see our daddy like this”...

I had finally decided to face the reality. But wanted to wait for some more time so that I don’t end up weakening others around me. With prayers, I woke up and decided to spend the day with prayers as I knew only god could help me now; help us…As my appups was the Strength of our family. He was the pillar of the strong bond that we share with each other and we were facing something that none of us ever wanted to…Every phone calls, gave a shiver within me. Not knowing who the call was from or what news they had to share.

Finally; the wait ended and the phone rang with the news. The test was successfully completed and we have to wait for the results now. My appups came thru the procedure strongly and he wanted to hear our voice. He sounded weak and tired; but he was trying hard to sound jovial as always. Again, I was admiring his ability to bring a smile in all our face even during the most difficult times. This is what I had to learn from him.

Life is filled with joys and sorrows, ups and downs, happy and sad days. We need to face many harsh realities that we might never would love to face. Accept them. Face them. Fight them…

With a smile…