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Saturday, November 13, 2010

Why was she doing this to me...

Part I
Ok…now, friends…I am a bit hurt…Is that silly of me to get hurt…I don’t know…Can I avoid getting hurt???No…I would be the first person to look around for reasons to get hurt…especially if it’s the matter of any relation…then look for me, I would be right there…Some INTELLIGENT people advised me…Never expect anything in return…Then you wouldn’t get hurt…it was true…I too always advise many around me the same thing…but could I ever practice it in my own life??? Never… somehow, I couldn’t…

When I say expect…I am not expecting any physical goods or stuff…just the affection and support…For all that I do for someone, the least I expect would be that they be truly there with me…for me…but somehow, thru out my life, I have seen 99% of people, who were considered by me as friends or family… who needed me during their times of need and then just left me once they got what they wanted….Now what I am going to say, is a childish one..but still it hurts…

It was during my graduation days, that I became friends with R…I have mentioned her in one f my earlier posts…Anyways…she was very chirpy, but gets too sentimental at the most unexpected instances and still she was fine…she and I was jokingly called as Honey and Milk..as we were together most of the time…From morning till evening, when we leave to our respective home…

She stayed quite far from city…So I used to pick her from the Main Bus Station and then we both crossed the 30mts drive to our college together in my 2 wheeler…it was fun..as our college was a bit far from the city…It was a routine…we both going together to college, staying whole day together and then dropping her back at the Bus station…

One day, there was some serious issue at my house..a very serious family issue…everybody at home were stressed and upset…I knew, it was not proper for me to go to college that day…I called her home, and told her that I wouldn’t be coming to college…She asked for the reason…I couldn’t say anything as my mom was nearby…and I felt it was not proper talking about the issue on phone…Anyways…she just disconnected the call…Even I was in a hurry, so I didn’t notice any problem in that…

Next day, we were having a special class from a Guest Lecture and had to be at the college on time..she knew it…So I waited for her at the Bus Station…almost till 9.30am, I waited…looking thru every single bus…During those days, mobile phone was not common…So finally by 9.30 I got into one of the Telephone booth and called her home… only to know that she left for college early that day…and they were worried asking me, if I didn’t meet her…I too was worried..not knowing what happened to her…I knew, I am already late for my special class…I roamed around a bit more and then rushed to college…Just wanted to be sure, she wasn’t there…

How, I drove that day…even I don’t know…finally, I parked the scooter and rushed to my classroom…and my teacher who saw that I was almost 45 minutes late…gave me an angry glare as if saying.. “I will see you after the class…”… I ignored that and entered the classroom…and there she is…right near a common friend, who she used to always deplore…I was surprised and shocked too…I was waiting for the class to get over…

Finally, the class got over…I saw her walking out with the other friend…I wondered why she was behaving so…and followed her out…I saw her sitting outside with some friends in the corridor…I went towards her…by then, I was angry and upset…. I started talking… “Hey R, If u were not coming, u could have atleast let me know…I wouldn’t…”… before I could complete my sentence, she blurted out… “I DON’T WANNA HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU…”

This shocked me and hurt me…I dint know, why she behaved so…nor could I find a reason…suddenly I felt so lonely…bcoz, all this while, even though I was friends with everybody in the class…emotionally I was attached to only her…and when such a reaction came from her…I was stressed…

Our routine broke…I went alone to college…sat with rest of the class mates…while she roamed around with the other friend…I was wondering, how could she, as I knew, how much she used to mock that girl…How badly she used to hate that girl’s character and behavior…and now, she is walking around with the same girl…to hurt me more (atleast that's what I felt and that was what she was doing...), she laughed and giggled every time she saw me, giving me occasional stares and looks…I didn’t know, what is happening with her and why was she doing this to me…

To be continued…

5 comments:

SindhuBhairavi said...

hmm, waiting for the continuation..

lakshmi said...

I can very well relate to your feelings. Have gone through it many times. That is how it is I suppose. Take care

KParthasarathi said...

like serial writers you know how to leave the readers in limbo biting their nails in suspense.

Stranger said...

Lesson 1:

If the above is a true incident, dont trust such people.

If she can be friendly with some one whom she used to bad mouth then she is not trust worthy... I am not judging but just being world wise ...

Jzt4me said...

@ Stranger - 99.9% of what I post in here is real life incidents. Majorly happend to me and a very few to someone who I know well...

I could sense how trust worthy she could be...but then, I always wanted to be fair and give her a chance to change herself..