A Sentimental Idiot...

Listening to songs was always a favourite pastime for me…But the problem with me is that I listen to the same song again and again and again… This could end me up in a change of mood…which could be either a Happy or Sad…Sentimental or Cheerful…Emotional or Playful…I have my own set of songs loaded into my mobile which I listen to very often..and somehow, my list doesn’t grow that fast…it is very difficult for any song to enter into my mobile…as I am too much engrossed in my own list…that I doesn’t even listen to another song to like it or not like it…

I had a friend years back, who had once gifted me a cassette recorded with the same song…When my brother unknowingly played the cassette in the player, it started playing the song…it got over and as he waited for the next song, again he heard the same song…again and again he was hearing the same song…at one point he doubted, maybe I was rewinding the cassette…so angrily he fast forwarded the cassette and played it again…to hear the same old song…lol!!! He used to call me Crazy then, for listening so passionately to that cassette…

Now, how I like a song totally depended on its lyrics…if the lyrics were beautiful, then I would love the song… That was the reason why I was so emotionally attached to my songs…As for each song in my list, I had some memory or thoughts or people attached to it…some where happy thoughts and some painful thoughts…so, my mood would end up in a pool of changes as per the songs I hear…

Okkkk..now, all that introduction for nothing??? Naaa…actually, now I am in a whirlpool of mood fluctuation…. I have been listening to some songs…and most of the songs somehow depicted the need for support, love and care… to the three songs that I was listening, I had three different memories….So when I was listening to them, my thoughts flew back to the past…and those faces that was inside my heart came up…

I just felt like telling this out…That, I am a Sentimental Idiot..now…I don’t wanna sing the song out to you guys…but I wanna give a word by word translation of some of the lines of the song that I am listening to right now…These are the lines that keep me close to this song….

When words get spoiled….when a problem arises…
Please stand by me…oh my love…
Apart from you…There is nobody…nor was there anybody…in my life
Please stand by me…oh my love…

Till the moment the Moon gives the light, everybody giv u company..
But please, you don’t leave my hand when it is dark…

U have to belive me…we have met somewhere before..
This is a matter of eras…and its not just today’s story…

So…now this song is supposed to be a romantic song…But somehow, this was the song that I used to always listen to and sing when I was pregnant…I used to keep my hands on my protruding tummy and sing to my baby this song… It was like, I was telling this to him…To be my support some day…to stand by me…Washing off the romanticism in the song, I found the song to be a mother’s plea to her son…

You might think I am a fool for doing that…but, friends, just go thru the above lines…Can’t a mother say the some words to her children…Can’t this be a prayer from an insecure mother to her son… Atleast for me, I felt so… During my pregnancy, I was really insecure…about everything…I feared anything and everything…even the safety of my baby…That’s how I ended up getting attached to this song…A Song for me and my baby…

Now you tell me…Am I really one…???

A Sentimental Idiot???