Lessons of Wisdom...

Are u one of them who study your daily portions and prepare for your exams much ahead of the examination date…Are the days before your exam; Revision Days for you…Ok…I AM NOT…. Shamelessly..uhmm..Shamefully, let me admit…NO…the whole semester, I would be doing everything else other than studying…and the two days before the exam were the days of Studies…I would be rushing through my subjects…Even though, my inner heart after every exam, scolds me hard for this last minute rush and irresponsibility…I never could change that nature of mine of keeping my studies till the last day…Maybe, it was the over confidence in me that made me be so…Maybe I was too arrogant to think that I could study all those portions in two days…grr…I feel so embarrassed now to admit it…

But do you think, this nature of mine could actually help me and many others…Would you believe if I say, if not for my this nature, many of my friends might have had lost a whole semester…My over confidence actually saved many from writing Supplement Papers…uhmm…

Now, before I get into the story… let me thank my class mate here…She was one girl, who used to work so hard throughout the year and still find herself BLANK, the day b4 the exam… So we both had decided on Combined-Study…where I was one person who might be seeing most of the lecture notes for first time and so knew NOTHING…and she might be seeing it the 100th time and still knew NOTHING…Our way of studying was…I would be like a Teacher, reading out the notes as if I was saying some story…and she would be like a student who seriously listened and learnt them with understanding…It worked for both of us…as I wanted someone to listen to me..and she wanted someone to read out to her…By god’s grace and her support I never had to go to any exam without learning the subject well…and she too became confident in appearing for the exams…

Life at college went on this way…till the Sixth and the last semester…rather the last exam we had to give for our Graduation course…As the course suggested, we had too many arrays of subjects to study every semester…Thus came the paper, “Entrepreneurship” … This was a subject which was done in detail for the Commerce students…so for the English Lecturers, this was completely new…Two of the Senior Lecturers divided the syllabus between them and took classes…they gave long Lecture notes and made the students equipped to face the Barrier of Examinations…I being too busy with everything else, had no time to actually even go through these notes…till that Saturday…

Monday was the last exam…Entrepreneurship Paper…ours being the first batch of the newly introduced course, this exam was almost like a Challenge for the English Department of the college…So early morning Saturday, I reached my Study mate’s door step…lol…Trust me, my mind at that moment was like a blackboard that was never touched with Chalk…My friend was like a Blackboard scribbled with Chalks all over…My mind was wandering with fear as I knew NOTHING….She had lot of fears, as she felt she knew nothing…With much optimism…we got into her bed…and started going through Lecture notes of one of the Teacher…Teacher M…

Almost after 2 hours, we hadn’t progressed…the never ending pages of the lecture notes scared both of us…We decided to start with Teacher G’s notes…personally I liked her more…lol!!!somehow, G’s notes seemed more interesting and easy to learn…Soon after lunch time, we made sure that G’s portions were almost done…Again, half heartedly, we started on M’s notes…how much ever, I tried making the process interesting, the stuff seemed too confusing and boring and never ending…Essays seemed like Novels…Short Notes seemed like Essays…I hated it…we had no option..had to study…almost 1 day was over…we had just 1 more day before the exam…and we were still no where…

By 6 in the evening, I knew, we were hopeless in our War to succeed…grrr..It was then, I decided…Why not check the syllabus…and then go through the notes as per the Syllabus…atleast we would have some guide…that was the idea…

When we started going through the syllabus and trying to find the corresponding notes among the lecture notes, shockingly we realized…we had NOTHING…. All of Teacher M’s notes were completely irrelevant….She had given notes of portions which was not in our Syllabus…and She had given NO notes of portions from our Syllabus….That meant…apart from both of us…rest of the batch mates were busy studying portions which was not actually required and they would be coming for the exam without studying the necessary portions…Shocked, I immediately called Teacher G…(as u know, she was my favourite…)…She was like shocked too…it was too late to even call everybody to the College…So what she advised was, to try to find the Entrepreneurship Text Book from any Commerce students…and photo copy relevant portions and try studying in that last one day, the Sunday…A phone call to all other class mates to pass this information was done…

I could hear many getting worried, some even cried…as they had spend days to learn this practically New subject…I was still blank…That night, I walked through my street with my brother…walking into every house, asking if there was any Bachelor of Commerce, Final Year student..who could give me his Text book to be photocopied…They too were having exams, so there was doubts if they should give or not…Still, finally, we managed to get a text book…and photocopied the whole stuff, that night itself…

Sunday was like a Day on Fire…I and my Study mate, rigorously went thru the topics and somehow, made ourselves aware of the subject…Trust me, the portion was so easier than what Teacher M has given us…God knows, how could she be so careless, in making such a big error… but even today, when I think of it…IF I HADNT THOUGHT OF IT…on deciding to take out the syllabus actually saved the future of a whole batch of students…and the reputation of the College...

On Monday morning, all of us was so tensed…bcoz none of us had even time enough to study well…Atleast for me, it was not new..I was always a last minute Study person…So, maybe it didn’t make too much of a difference…We met Teacher G at the entrance…she tried hard to console us…and make us tension-less…Anyways, majority of us did the exam well…rather everybody passed the exam…and for me, I was one of the University Gold Medalist …

Out of all this…what is it, that actually made me feel bad was…Teacher M…even after knowing she made a big mistake…she never felt like coming to us and at least be there to give us some Moral Support… “To Err is Human…”… but then, she would have been regarded high if she was there to accept it too…Instead, she acted as if She knew nothing about what was happening…and she had no further responsibilities…afterall, it was matter of the future of many of the students….She failed to remember that…atleast, that's the impression she gave…

Still, I prefer believing, that day DID make some change in her…I don’t know…I can't make sure either as I had left college after my graduation…but I believe, the past cannot be changed, the future is yet in your power...as...

Mistakes are Lessons of Wisdom...

It's my Belief...

Its frustrating …You are expecting too many changes in your life in near future and for some strange odd silly reason..nothing happens…My life is in such a pace now…and I hate this…these are the moments, when I wish….WISH…I COULD SEE TOMORROW….ok, I am not sure, how many of you really do believe in Horoscopes, Astrology, Palmistry and all those stuff… Shamelessly, let me tell u…I like them…rather, I prefer believing in them…Its like a last resort…going to an Astrologer and checking out, how is our Present Tense and what can we expect in the future…not that it can make big difference in my present pace…

Many non-believers say…its all CRAP…Maybe…and maybe not…as far as I believe…like any other science Astrology too is a science..if you believe in the presence of God, why not believe in such miracles where you can predict your future and see ur past…Ur belief tends to grow strong, when smbdy tell u on ur face, what happened in ur past…uhmmm…and then whatever future he say, we would expect it to happen…and for me, I have had a good share of such revelations happening in my life…So I believe in them…and still, look forward to going to a Good Astrologer and sitting in front of him with my ears stooped up to hear some good pleasant things that is bound to happen in near future…lol!!!

I wanna share some of those predictions that later became a reality in my life…

I was in my early teens when my dad one day came home, all worried with a prediction by a renowned Astrologer…As per him, I will have a FRIEND whose name might start in alphabet “__”, who would have a depression below his Chin…and this person could cause trouble in my life and change my life to a different phase…My dad did a thorough investigation into my friend’s name list…That moment it felt strange…Dad warned me to be aware of any such person who might become a friend in future even…I smiled at heart…WHAT A JOKE…

Two years later…I was in deep trouble…finding my way to save my mental peace…from a FRIEND…who got possessive and Obsessed with our relation and left NO chance to make my life hell…His name indeed started with the Predicted alphabet and he had a depression beneath his chin which I noticed only much later…It changed me into a Female who could never take the least bit of Bossing by another person…

Once a man came home with his Parrot who took cards that predicted our future…My mom, was surprised when he said that her brother, my Uncle would bring his WIFE himself (Family arranged marriage was the style of our marriages and Love Marriage was almost equal to a taboo in our family…and here the Card was saying, my Uncle would have a Love marriage…)… Ours being an Orthodox family and my Uncle being just very young at that time and also very Homely character, my mom ridiculed the predictions…She was sure, that is not bound to happen…

Few months later, my Uncle married his College Mate…after being in Love for 2 years….They are still happily married with 2 beautiful kids…lol…
Two years back, myself, hubby and bro went to an Astrologer… As soon as he saw my horoscope, he said…"Your horoscope was bound to be an Horoscope of a Doctor…but how much hard work you could do, You would never be able to be a Doctor…"
True: I was all set to become a Doctor, when the very previous night of the Medical Entrance Exam, I fell sick and later unconsciously collapsed at the Examination hall…I was admitted to the hospital for 5 days due high fever…My Dream f becoming a Doctor faded there…

He looked at my bro and said… "You were in a Love affair before…Good that it didn’t materialize into a marriage…Bcoz if so, You would have ended up being an instrument in her hands like a hen-pecked husband and would have been frustrated by now ..."
True: My brother blushed…His failed love affair was like a Public Secret…Many of us knew about it, but none openly spoke about it…We were relieved, on knowing that the failure was a Boon in Disguise…lol!!

During our last vacation to our home town…in front of one of the temples, my hubby noticed a Parrot Card Reader… Mainly to show our son a Parrot, we decided to take a card for myself…Lol…the below are some of the stuff he said…“Madam, you are more than a Teacher to people around you…It doesn’t mean your profession is teaching…it means, you try teaching everybody what is good for them…You are good enough to teach your husband…Surprising bit is, Whatever you teach is absolutely right and good…but the Unfortunate part is, None actually heed to your advices…It would be too late for them to realize that What you said once was indeed true…”

I was stealthily looking at my husband…for I know, my husband had agreed to that part…for her had some experiences on my words becoming reality…In those instances, he used to fight back saying that “U have a black tongue, and what ever you say happens…” But then, what he failed to realize was that, I was just talking out of my experience and my foresight…. Due my past experiences, if I am put in similar situations, I tend to think much to the future and try to make myself ready to face it…Same way, I try warning my hubby, bro or father in times of major decisions they wanna take…Most of the time, they ridicule and reject my warning..and later find themselves in the same Trouble, I had predicted much earlier… Thus a very Common Dialogue my husband say is… “Haaaa, u said , right?…then now no need of even thinking of it...its gonna happen only like u say…”…hehe!!!

The astrologer went on to talk to my husband…and this part…my husband still hate for going to him…and I still feel elated to listening to it…haha!!! “Sir, your wife is a gem of a person…shes really talented and sweet hearted…but then, her bad luck is, she would never get what she deserve… Don’t feel bad, for me saying this…BUT, truth is…You don’t deserve to get such a good wife…She is worth much better husband….I am not telling this to insult you…But the cards say this…You don’t have to give me money…But then, you yourself know the truth…”

I was like about to laugh out…holding hard to myself…My husband was like… “Ohhh, crap crap…”… and smiling…I could translate his smile very well…at heart he was cursing for going to him…haha!!! But then, he had no other option than to listen to him…as what ever rest the card reader said about him and me was real…How True was the part of me being a GEM, only god knows…hehe!!!

There are many such predictions and interesting revelations that I have heard from astrologers and most of them have ACTUALLY happened in my life…Not that I am always ending up in front of an Astrologer…Still, I love to actually hear about me from somebody else…maybe that is the truth…Especially, if he could say about a person’s past and character correctly, why not have some trust that the future he is predicting might happen…

As for the present confusions and un-decisive moments, I wish I could know, if it is worth for me to take all this tension and wait for tomorrow…lol!!, Yes, I am waiting for a long awaited changes in my career…Its been months that I am expecting it today, tomorrow, day after…and so its going on…Latest is, I have to wait till March end…How nice it would have been, if I could know it today…So that I don’t have to worry myself till March end…grrr…

By the by, there is another prediction, I am waiting to see, if it would happen…yesterday, one of my cousin back home, took my brother’s horoscope to an Astrologer… He openly asked…

“Did any marriage proposal come to this guy few months back, which was almost fixed and later was cancelled…”…YES…(we were almost at the verge of finalizing the date too for a proposal for my bro…due some unsatisfactory reasons, we decided not to proceed…)

“Good, that it didn’t happen…even if the proposal come back, don’t proceed…As, if that marriage happens, it would end in Divorce…”

“Is this boy not happy with his present job…Does he want to change job…Tell him…wait for atleast 3 months…before that, a change is going to happen…through this job only, he is going to get into a very good position…”

Yes, my brother was not so happy with his job and has been looking for some job…and the surprising bit is…For past few weeks, he had stopped searching for vacancies….As per him… he wanna wait till April-May, as there are rumours going around that, some Huge changes gonna happen to his Company…Now, Count…February, March April…that is 3 months…Was this co-incidence…God knows…

All that we can do now is…Wait…Wait for the deadlines the astrologer has predicted…

3 months for a change of career…and….Oh yes, didn’t I tell you…He predicted…My brother would be married maximum by November this year…So if its gonna be true…before November, I shall be sending you all a Marriage Invitation … So, you all believe in it or not…I prefer believing it…after all, if it is some good things, that I am expecting to happen…then why not…

It’s my Belief…

Keep your mouth SHUT...

After reading Dost’s post on his blog - Valentine Soup…I made a comment where in I had asked a genuine doubt…Ok, now the post was a story about a girl who was in love with a colleague who was a fraud…Who was enjoying his life having affairs with girls and making them spend for his luxury… At the end of the story, the girl finds the truth about the Man through a friend, another colleague, who was also in a relation with the same man before…and the girl is playing a prank on the man…Tit for Tat…Good…

But then, my question was…WHY dint the friend never warned the Girl even when she knew the Girl was in love with this crooked man…To my question Dost replied so…” People do not divulge betrayals or rejections. They do not talk abt love affairs. Don't you think so”… This made me thinking…In this month of Love and Valentines…I suddenly thought…Wht would I have done in a similar situation…Suddenly, I remembered a past situation in my life…and then realized…What Dost said was the best to be followed…Better keep quiet…rather than getting involved and get hurt…

If you remember, not long back..I had told u the story of my friend…In one of the Part..I had mentioned about how I had warned her about the Boy’s nature and my assumption on whatever I had heard of him….I remember how she ignored my assumptions and how she ridiculed my way of thinking…Much later, when she went thru all those trouble that I had predicted before…she openly told me… “Dear, whenever u used to tell me so…I used to think…WHY U SAYING SO…afterall, Wont I also yearn for some love…and how can LOVE be a burden…I never understood when u told me…and so I almost stopped telling u details about my relation with him…”… I had warned her how dangerous can Possessiveness or Obsession in love can turn a person into… how the same love that brought her close to him could take her far away frm him…She never realized before it was too late…

Ok, then I realized…when somebody is in love…whatever we try putting into their head…IF IT IS NEGATIVE INFORMATION…nothing is gonna get into their head..instead, they will start thinking negative of urself…They could go to extends where they could imagine that U r jealous of them and that is why u r trying to take them out of the relation…ha…But then…what made me feel stupid was…WHY DINT I LEARN THIS LESSON MUCH BEFORE….afterall…this was not the first time, I was being penalized for the same error…uhmm…A bit into that past…

Years back…during my graduation…I was doing a 3 years diploma course in Multimedia and Web Designing along with my graduation…I found new 2 friends (Rags & Babs – names are imaginary) from those classroom…One a girl who was 2 years elder than me and the other who was 2 years younger than me…We three soon turned to be inseparable mates… We used to meet daily evening during classes and chat and have fun in the class...All three of us were very poor when we take out our purse…lol…there were days when none of us could spare even a 10bucks…haha!!!...still, as our friendship grew, we started reaching the classes much earlier than the class timing and then together we would rush to a nearby joint…Hot Breads….lol…

They had those yummy milkshakes, pastries, burgers and what not…and we had mostly holes in our purses… the best we could do mostly was… save on the 10-15Rs that one of the girl had, which she was to use for her Auto Rikshaw – the to and fro transportation charge from Home to Class…Instead, we took the risk of using my Kinetic, riding it in Triples…lol…Still remember, people’s eyes popping out when they see 3 GIRLS having triples…lol…we used to drop one person off as soon as we saw any Police Jeep’s head…heeh!!! And with this 10Rs that we save, we used to buy one Pastry and then used to sit with three spoons and sharing it btw ourselves…every evening atleast 1/2hr …was OUR TIME at Hotbreads…

Those days, one of the girl, Rags was in love with a boy…lol…this boy worked abroad…rather he worked in this country where I am now…Naturally, Rag had to dedicate more time Chatting with him at the internet café or speaking to him on the phone at the telephone Booths…that left me and Babs outside the Booth or the café…we spend those moments sharing our deep secrets…Babs knew almost everything about me…Trust me, those days, naturally, from heart…if u weigh you attachment to Rags and Babs…I was more attached to Babs…I never opened up much to Rags, as she had other things to worry concerning her love…Whatever…the Underlining part was BABS KNEW ME INSIDE OUT….

Years passed…I came to this country…met Rags boyfriend…soon Rags eloped with him to this country…hehe!!...Naturally, local calls were cheaper…I and Rags was in touch… Still, I kept close contacts with Babs too… During these days…Rags broke a news to me… that she heard a rumour from some other ex-classmate that Bab is getting engaged with one of our Instructor at the Computer Class….Rags said that everybody is gossiping back home that Babs and this Instructor were in Love… which was NOT TRUE…as we were sure about it… many friends from the class started contacting us and started filling us with more and more Gossips on this made-up love story

Finally, we decided to let Babs know about all this…Silly me…further to Rags persuasion I called Babs and informed her…I told her, how news was spreading so…and asked her to be careful…She pleaded Not guilty…and started feeling sad on WHY people r talking bad about her, when she knew nothing about it…uhmmm…I felt bad for her…Thus I ended the conversation consoling her…

After days…I got another SHOCKING news…Lol..this time…I WAS THE VILLAIN…grrr…Rags was laughing when she told me this news…Yeah, it was almost a joke…but then it hurt my inner feelings…

So, it so happened… that in real, this instructor "S" had some soft corner for Babs…so after the classess, his family approached Bab’s family for her hand in marriage…and thus their marriage was fixed…Naturally, when few knew about their marriage was on the talks, they might have assumed that it was a Love Marriage or maybe even the Guy might have had boasted among his friends to just show off that they were in love or smthing…Whatever…

Being from a really orthodox family…Babs came to know about her marriage only after the whole thing was fixed…At this point, Babs complained to her cousin, that there r such rumours spinning around and she is upset about it…Naturally, his cousin put forth a genuine concern… “Babs, why should Jzt say such things…she know u well…still why did she say so…What do u think…Did Jzt have any soft corner for S when u all were in the classes…Maybe, she is in love with that boy…and she doesn’t want u to marry him…So maybe she is trying to misguide u….”….

I wouldn’t have been hurt, if it was just a concern from Bab’s cousin…but then…Babs too at some point felt, Was there any truth in that… Even after knowing me inside out, she started wondering…and let Rags know… “Hey Rags do u think Jzt has some affection for S…”…. Rags who knew not even half of what Babs knew of me…gave a good piece of her mind to Babs for misunderstanding my intention…She even told her that it was she who asked me to called Babs…and explained how we came to know of the rumours and all…

Anyways…soon Babs got married…today she is a happily married wife and mother of 2 kids…Only after their marriage did Rags actually tell me these parts of the story…uhm…I was hurt…still hurt…When I met Babs after that, I did tell her openly that I was hurt..and she apologized…But…

The wound was already formed…how much ever medicine u put, the wound might heal…but some scars could never fade…This was a scar in our friendship…uhmm…

I realized a bitter truth…keep your head off when somebody is in love…as ur words could turn and bite you itself… as they say…LOVE IS BLIND and LOVERS ARE MORE BLIND… be it a truth that u r saying, unless they realize the truth their own way…ur words would never make them realize…So keep your advices to yourself…

“Keep your Mouth Shut…”

NB: By the by, Rags is still in this country...happily married (lol..a big story..ofcourse she married her lover only) and have 2 kids...After this issue, we started getting really close...Its then, she opened up to me that she always felt bad that I never used to be close to her...and gave more importance to Babs...uhmmm...I feel bad...Many a times, we fail to recognise the real diamond...right??? I am making up for my past mistake...We have been in close touch and I tell her almost everything about me...and She is truly a Best Friend for me today...

For her Happiness...

Ok friends, I have already given my head for the Multiple Slice CT Scan…waiting for the results… The doctor wanna see me with results so that he can find some solution to my head aches…But then, somehow, I feel, my health problems never end…One after another…its been always my allergic rhinitis that was pulling me down…But this wonderful doctor’s treatment had really relived me out of it miraculously in the most surprising way… Still, I had to fall sick…and this time some stupid infection…

Yeah…from past few days, I have been completely bed ridden…to hell with this infections and diseases…Why only me…and this one has really cut my spirit down…especially due some fears attached to it…Too early to talk about it…So I don’t wanna discuss it now…bcoz, already, I am worried and tensed and sort of upset on WHATTT… doesn’t wanna give you guys wrong information and confuse you and end you people also with the exclamation WHAT!!!...Anyways, not a good thing to brood on…So I am trying to take my mind off to something else…and that would be absolutely NOT HEALTH RELATED…grrr…

So, how r u all…Valentines day is fast approaching…What plans…frankly no plans for me…not in a mind set to celebrate Valentines’ day…hehe!!! Its bad health in the air and not Love…hahaha….Now sorry for that bad joke…I know, I know, even after myself saying that I don’t wanna talk about it, I am going back to the same topic…SHUT UP, to me…

One good thing that I could smile thinking of is about my cousin…So, it so happened that, she is my dear first cousin…First from my mom’s side…A cool girl…lol…She very often used to tell my son when he was a baby, “Hey…I am not ur aunty…I am ur mother…So be good to me…”…lol…She is some 5-6 yrs younger to me…still… we r like good friends and I pamper her too…So this girl, is working in a neighbouring state from my home town…and her parents had been looking for suitable alliance to get her married off…you know, how worried parents could be once their daughters cross 18years old…and she crossed 18 years back…

But then…in her case, to the distress of her parents and her happiness - the horoscope stuff really delayed her marriage…She was fine…as she was not yet OLDDDD…and was enjoying her independence as a working woman…lol!!! Now, the back drop story is…there was this guy, a North Indian…who worked in her company during the time she joined there…This guy had a liking for her and naturally proposed her for a marriage…and this GREAT GRANDMA…knew, her dad would be devastated if she fell in LOVE and that too with a North Indian… So she clearly made the boy understand her situation and asked him to go forward in his life…Now this happened some 2-3 years back…They remained good friends…He got transferred back to his home city and so they rarely saw…Just remained friends thru emails and occasional phone calls…

As years passed by…for some odd reason, none of the numerous marriage proposals her parents were looking for her worked…If the horoscope and rest work..the guy wouldn’t be good looking…If the guy is good looking, the horoscope wouldn’t be matching…If the guy is handsome and horoscopes matching, there would be too much of demands from the boy’s family…and so on…. As this went on, my dear little cousin, casually told her father about this North Indian boy’s interest (Naturally, he was still hoping that some day, my cousin might allow him to talk to her father…)…But this news actually shocked her father and he was like NOOOOOOOOOO….She ended the discussion then and there assuring him, its fine with her as she is not into any relation / affair with the boy…

Months passed by…few weeks back…suddenly her father had a feeling…Why was her marriage getting delayed like this inspite of all the other things worked…Is it that god had something else in mind… He asked her… “Baby, I have been going through 1001 temples and rituals and stuff…Still god is not listening to me, maybe somebody else is praying harder than me…Tell me frankly, In any corner of your mind…Are you praying FOR HIM… Do you wish, if he was your husband…”… and my cousin replied… “Dad, I don’t know if I love him or anything as I never proceeded such a relation with him…But yes, I Like him..he is a good friend of mine…and I feel, maybe I would be happy with him…But that doesn’t mean, I wanna hurt you and get married only to him…”

The surprise came after that…He asked my cousin to tell the Boy to speak to him…and the latest is…The boy spoke to my uncle...and after that his mother and then his father too spoke to my uncle and aunt…and they have asked for my cousin’s Horoscope… The Boy, assured that it is majorly for fixing a good date to proceed with the marriage… We are waiting for a reply from them now…

If they get back to us with a Positive Reply which could come any day this week…we will soon have a North Indian Son-in Law in our family…lol…!!! Trust me…I am really happy…for her…she is such a sweet girl..and I want her to have a happy life…and I really hope that this Boy is a genuine guy and if they get married would keep her happy through out their life…

Its her birthday on 15th February…and I hope, let this birthday give her a great Birthday Present…Her Partner for Life…The best Birthday, she ever had…bcoz, even if she agree or not…I belive, deep inside she does love him…I can read that in her eyes, when she talk about him…

TO all my blogger friends…Please include her in your Prayers…and bestow her with all your blessings…

For her Happiness…