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Showing posts with label Dog. Show all posts
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Sunday, July 18, 2010

Missing You...

For some strange reason, today his face has been very constantly fluttering through my thoughts…I haven’t been thinking of him for quite some time now and all of a sudden today he is in my thoughts…all fresh and cute as always…and his thought did instill a pain in my heart…a pain for the love I had for him….the pain of reality that I can never see him again…the pain of missing him…the pain of missing hugging him and loving him…I don’t think anybody else could ever take the place that he had in my mind ever after him…he was irreplaceable in my heart…in my family’s heart…He was our pet…a German Shepherd…a police trained watch dog…

“Gentle” was his name…an apt name for his behavior ONLY towards us…his family…I don’t remember when he came to live with us… but he was always there with us…He was an extremely brilliant dog…and absolutely disciplined and well mannered and knew his job very well…he was tall and well built for his age…I still remember the pace with which he would change his posture from a playful Pet dog to an Alert Watch Dog the moment a stranger enter our boundary wall…and trust me, if the new-comer did the mistake of picking even a piece of paper, he would find Gentle just near him….all alert and with a low volume growl, which would make even the bravest person drop down what ever he was picking up…lol!!!

I have to write a whole book on him, if ever I start talking to you about him…But today, as I remember him…I wish sharing with you about that day…the one day that me or my whole family can never forget…Even today, when I think of that day my eyes fill with tears and I wish…

Now, Gentle had a separate kennel close to our 2 storey house. His kennel was not less than a house or a room… It was as tall as any of our rooms and had a full length door, windows and a Tiled roof…It was like a Out-house…specially built in for the dogs that we had…if I missed telling earlier, we have had times when we had more than 7 dogs at a time…My dad was crazy about dogs and so were we kids…So, Gentle always had a magnificent royal life of his own…with good food and all health concerned medicines and all stuff…

Of all the people in the world, Gentle was scared of just one person…and that was none other than my Mom…hehe!!! My mom was strict not only with us but with the most disciplined Gentle too…lol!!! And the only reason for which Gentle could face mom’s wrath was if he committed the mistake of turning his room into his toilet…He had his own timings and specific areas to do it and if he forgot that Mom was there to teach him his lesson…You should see, his fear filled eyes when Mom scolds him…poor Gentle…

Anyways, one fine day, as a routine, just before going to school I went to his room’s window to say Bye to him…what I saw was there was a lot some waste fluid on the floor and he was busy licking them off…I started laughing and warned him… “Ha, Gentle, you did it in here…Mom is gonna kick you today…” As if he understood what I said…(No, he really understands what we tell him…)…he started frantically trying to lick off every bit of the fluid…Only then I noticed it was not some fluid but blood…I was shocked…Answering my screams for help, dad came running and brought him out of his room…I still remember how scared was he to come out of his room…He never had to fear Mom who was just half his strength…it was his discipline and his respect for his Madam…

I had to leave as I was getting late to school…I remember spending every minute of that day at school weeping and praying…not knowing what actually happened…I rushed home in the evening and came to know that in real Gentle, maybe while trying to bite off some fly or some insect bit his own tail so hard that a nerve broke and the blood was from the wound in his tail…He was given anastasia and a minor surgery was done…

By late night he was brought back home, carried by four people and was laid at our Verandah…he was half unconscious…we were all really upset and was taking turns to be with him…

All of a sudden, in his half unconscious state, Gentle tried standing up and walk out of the Verandah…none f us understood why he was doing that when he couldn’t even get up…even when we were asking him to sit, he was trying hard to walk forward but falling off every inch…he wasn’t giving up either…in his attempt, he fell off the three steps that led to the parking garage from the Verandah…We were trying hard to carry him back to verandah…God, he was indeed heavy and wouldn’t budge even…and then we noticed, why he was trying to move out of the Verandah…he was having dysentery…not a normal one, but all the blood that he drank in the morning was being ejected from his body then…

And poor Gentle didn’t wanted that to happen at the Verandah as he knew his Madam would never like it…I remember my Mom just breaking into tears on seeing this…She knelt down near Gentle and consoled him… “Gentle, don’t worry dear…Mom wont scold you…you come and lie down inside the Verandah…You are sick…Mom will clean it…Its OK…” …He was trying to keep his eyes open and gazing at my mom…As if understood what Mom said, he slowly gave in to our efforts…he tried getting up and finally we succeeded in bringing him back to the Verandah and letting him sleep for the rest of the night comfortably…to wake up the next day as fresh as any other day …

He died after 2 or 3 years of this incident…due old age…he saw the worst days of his health..and had really gone thru lot of pain before he went into final sleep…When he passed away, I was not informed…I was stopped from going near his rooms for days quoting some strange reason…But after a few days, when I really felt that something was fishy, I secretly went into his room and found it empty…Then I realized that he was gone…I know that there would never be another Gentle…

My dear Gentle, I miss you….

NB: I know, not all of you would love to have a pet dog…But trust me, if you had Gentle, you would never wanna leave him…As for us, till date, none of us could forget that night…when Gentle showed his disciplined character even when he was dead sick…Even today, we jokingly make fun of Mom…Afterall Mom was not less than a HITLER even to the most ferocious Gentle…and at the same time Mom makes fun of me and my brother that… “Even a dog behaved properly when I asked him to…but my own children till date hasn’t learnt to listen to their Mother’s advice or disciplines…” I would surely share with you all some other stories of him...some day…

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

A Healthy Freedom...

Haa…it’s been a tough week…going through some real tension and pressure…uneasiness gulped me up the past few days…enveloped in an uncertainty… due to a feeling of not knowing anything…Yeah, the days really made me tired…had no time for the head ache…or rather, the headache was always there, but there were more serious issues to be tackled…so the presence was not given value….uhmm…really…its absolutely true when I say… “The illness of your loved ones can wash off any amount of your illness…” and especially if he is your blood…your own baby...Your Son…

Yes, all this while, I have been telling about my mother, my father, my brother….Never did I mention about my dear son…maybe because I didn’t wanted to bring him into the story of my Past…I wanted to cross all those past stories and then come to the Story of Present…The present tense with my son….My dear little Rascal…

An unexpected turn of events was what I witnessed last week…One day he was absolutely well and the next day I am sitting beside him at the hospital in the Intensive Care Unit…I didn’t have any idea how it happened or why… just knew that my little sweet heart was absolutely sick…

When my mom called me at office in the afternoon and told me he doesn’t seem OK, I assumed… “Maybe a bad nose block…like me, he too had a bad nose…” … I took my own sweet time to leave office and reach home…One look at his face and I had to curse my damn assumption…I could see him right in front of me trying hard to inhale a decent amount of air…He wasn’t crying, but he was giving out a weeping murmur…which made me sick…

I had to literally carry him and rush to the car and sped my way through the busy road…Cursed every single vehicle that came in front of me and Yelled at the heavy traffic block…Wished I could get hold of one of those Police cars and take my son to the safety of a Hospital…after much of harrow I ran into the doctor’s consulting room…he didn’t waste his time to have a proper consultation…just a look at my son’s breathing pattern was more than enough for him…

After a set of Nebulisation, he knew it was not enough…Next moment I saw him yelling at the nurse for not having ICU bed ready for the baby…Tears filled my eyes and so I couldn’t see where I was walking to…I just followed the nurse…hugging on to my son against my chest…I could feel his chest pumping up hard against my chest…He was wheezing in the most scariest way...I hated myself for not leaving early from office to take him to the doctor…

Soon, he was in the ICU bed…with all sorts of tubes and wires and oxygen masks on him…Poor boy…he didn’t even cry when the nurses injected him a number of times…because the pain he was going through otherwise was much worse…I lie near him hugging him…I knew, he was scared…I too was…but gave him all assurance…"Mamma is there with you, baby…."

Anyways, that is past now…its been 7 days now…Thanks to the almighty and the doctors and the nurses at the hospital for their care and concern...He was discharged yesterday…and, now all is well…or rather my dear baby is absolutely fine and on the best of his spirits…Doctors advised for rest…but that could be the last thing that he could be following at this moment of his spirits…

After all, what can a 2 year old know, when we tell him to take rest….how can I explain to him how sick he was…how can I tell him… “Baby, you had a infection in your blood…and that caused your Breathing tubes to get tightened and narrowed and thereby restricting oxygen intake….which inturn caused Lack of Oxygen into the Heart and thereby raised the Heart & Pulse rate…and that is absolutely serious…So, please take rest till you are absolutely recovered…” ….He is going to just stare at my face as if I just said some funny crazy story…

For him, he just had independence…Freedom from the hospital bed…Freedom from the Oxygen mask…Freedom from the IV fluid and the tubes and injections…Freedom from the wires from all sort of medical equipments…Freedom to run around and not stay in the bed 24/7…Freedom to do whatever he want…Freedom to do the most craziest thing he could…Freedom to pull down the dishes over his head…Freedom to switch off the lights and drag the pillows to the floor…

Frankly speaking…He was lost…He couldn’t imagine what he wanted to do…He’s bashing into anything and everything and making us crazy running behind him…threatening him that we will put him back into the hospital bed for the injection….lol!!!

As family and friends called to check how is he doing…my one line could explain everything…uhmm...it might sound strange for comparing my sweetheart like that that...but then, it matched so much to his present spirits...I just said...

“Oh, What to say…He has washed off his illness and right now is enjoying his freedom…Just like a Dog who was let free from his kennel after days …”