No more excuses for the long gap in here…Nor any promises to b regular here after…For I know, promises are meant to be broken…and smhow I know it too well…experience taught me tht…Its been years that I had started this blog… with a promise to myself, tht I will open up myself atleast here…but did I keep up the promise? I dint… I knew it more than anybody else as I was still telling out only what others knew or have heard…not those that could have been rightly called the “Deepest Secrets”.
Secrets…Is there anybody in this world who didn’t have one of those…I doubt…I had… and that too many…I had tried finding some one wz whom I could share my secrets…the deepest ones…Somehow, smthng in me, scared the wits out of me whenever I decided to finally throw it out…I never could. I knew, ideas of biography nor autobiography would never work in my case. Just for the reason that I was still not able to trust…Trust myself nor trust others around me…Thus, those secrets that I called Deepest got buried further deep…
Envy those of you, who could just pour it out and finish it off. Its almost end of another year. What’s in store for me in the coming year is also a secret. Would I have to safeguard my secrets still further long, I don’t know. But I know I have a yearning wish to just scream out to the world. The secrets I have been holding on to.
Clutching onto them as if they are dear to me
With a wish to let it go far away from me…
Why in the world did I chose to hold them
As if they were all and I had none other than them…
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