I am in Love...!!!

Wow...its been quite a long time that I haven't been in here...Trust me, guys...I am not lazy...but I am just tied up with work...and some other stuffs...week ends have been really tiring and busy with some appointment on every week end...in the last one month I have attended 4 birthdays, hosted 3 dinners, quite a few house visits which were pending from quite some time and so on...still remains some more house visits which is a bit far away from where we stay...so been putting it off..but might do it next week...

At office, I am stuck with extra responsibilities added onto my job profile and that makes every week day just fly off...It wasn't long b4 when I used to drag myself into my office on a Sunday and wait with such a yearning heart for the Thursday, the week end to come fast...and it always felt as if the thursdays would never come...but once I was offered this new responsibilities I got so busy with work daily, that some days, I even forgot that it was past lunch time...uhmmm...Good for me...I had no time to yawn or doze off...lol!!!

But in between all this...I had found time to do just one thing....and maybe it was bcoz of this one thing that kept me away from your people...uhm...and what is that..You could guess that from the title of this post...Yes...LOVE...yeah, friends I am in love...madly in love...You must be wondering..how could I..being a married woman...a mother of a 2 year old...and now falling in love...maybe some of you must be now thinking... "Oh maybe u r in love with ur husband.." for those of u who r thinking so...I am sorry...he's not the one...

Guys, I know, its odd for me to say this aloud...I am not too old a woman...its not too late to fall in love again either...but then, why can't I fall in love...being married can never stop someone's heart not to fall in love...right???Atleast, I believe so...and I would like to stand by that... Especially, when I had the courage to face the fact and tell it openly to my husband also...He understood, that what I was feeling was true from my heart and I shouldn't be made fun of for this feeling...neither could I be blamed for that...So he smiled and accepted my love...as usual...thats what he had done, whenevr I discussed about my boyfriends or guys who flirts with me...He knew I could manage it very well...This time, he was a bit insecure for sure...still he had to accept it..I gave him no other choice...uhmm...

Anyways...now..the tragedy is...My love has been accepted by everybody around me...now the only person remaining to know about it and accept me is the person who I am in love with...I loved him without even his knowledge...I loved the way he behaved...I loved his nature...his character...his strength..his weakness and what not...I love every thing about him...and I just wish that I could meet him and tell all this to him on his face...I know, it is impossible...atleast, in the present scenario, it is more than impossible...I can't blame anybody for my fate...

I still know, that my love is real...and I wish I had met him years back...atleast I would have waited for him my whole life...Now, no use brooding over what is past...I can't do anything about it now...Atleast, what I am hoping now is to meet him some day and just let him know that I just fell in love with him for what he is...

I am sure, you would be wondering why I didn't go and tell him this till now...Friends, I can't...he is far away from my reach...rather, he is no where in my reach...He is not alive...he was never alive...He just lives in my memory...I can't love someone who gave a body to my love...I can love only that person...

That is my love...Rather he is my love...My love...uhmm...what is wrong with me if I fell in love with him...Is it not love...what is my fault that I fell in love with not a live person but a Character...I fell in love with the Hero of a Novel...I just got crazy about a person who was just the result of an imagination of Stephanie Meyer...What is my mistake if I fell in love with not a man but a Vampire...

But, still..with all my heart...let me tell u...I am crazily obsessed with Edward, the Vampire from the Series of Twilight....lol!!!Now I feel a bit shy...or rather embarassed...of all the men in this world...How could I...Why couldn't I fall in love with some human being...atleast some one who was not just imaginary...grrr...but what to dooooo...

Afterall...I am Me...and I am in Loveeeeeeeeeee....!!!

Nb: Now guys, don't think, I am in love with the Hollywood Actor who enacted Edward's role in the Twilight Movies...Sorry, wrong thinking...I just don't care who was the actor or how he look like...till date, I haven't even seen a trailer of the movies...I happened to read the Twilight Series...and fell in love with the character Edward...Maybe that is the exact way, I always wished my love should take care of me...the way he loves Bella, the heroine....grrr...I envy her...grrrrr...I wish, if I would ever meet some one who take care of his love the way he does...In this world, is there really any such person anywhere ALIVE....I doubt that...lol!!! Anyways, I have told my hubby...If anywhere in this world, a person like Edward really exists...and if he ever comes in front of me and love me the way Edward loves Bella...that day, my hubby should set me free...lol!!!...God, Am I really Mad...or am I close enough to get some medical attention??? hehe!!! By the by, missed to tell you...the very little free time that I had the last month, I was spending it reading the first three series of the Book...and that is why I couldn't find some spare time to post in a blog...lol!!!