What do you think? I am not sure if I had mentioned
this thought of mine ever before in any of the pages of this blog… But, when I
saw this picture on my timeline, I couldn’t help but say… YESSSSSS…. Rather wished
to scream out loud… YESSSSS…
Every time somebody asks me, “Where are you going?” I
would respond back jokingly “Somalia, Why??? Coming??”… Anyways, that is the
joke part… Since years now, I keep repeating to myself that I just wanna go
somewhere, where none recognises me… I felt maybe Somalia or Uganda could be a
good place to do that… But since watching a movie on Uganda and how a female had
to go through some horrifying experience there; I am sort of apprehensive about
that destination as my hideout…Anyways, I don’t want to get into a controversy
on any country…
The main point is… “I REALLY WANT TO GO”… where and
when, no idea…but yes, its been in thoughts and wishes and hope that someday, I
get the courage to pull my sleeves up and say Quits and just step out into a
world of anonymity… I want to get a new name for myself and start a new life…
The weird thing is that every other person who knows
about this says, “Me too”. Or the other common response is, “With whom”… Wonder
why everybody is getting fed up of their present life and why are they wishing
so much for a fresh start… Is the whole world going through rough patches?
Naaa!!! No idea…I don’t wanna think about what’s happening to them…All, I want
is a fresh start for myself…
Someone recently told me not to keep repeating what I
want to do…JUST DO IT… As per him, if I keep repeating, others will give NO
value to what you say… Your action speak louder than your words…But, here, he
is not seeing the intention behind my wish and my action… I am not wishing to
go away to show anybody…or to prove any big point to anybody… I don’t want
anybody to give their permission or get worried of my departure… All I am
trying to do here is to slowly sink it into their mind that I might indeed be
serious and I might take my leave someday soon… So the day, I step out, it doesn’t
come out as a shock or surprise to anybody…So that day, I don’t have to waste
my time in giving explanations…So that day, I am not facing any emotional
dramas or blackmails… So that day, I don’t want people to pass comments on “HOW
ATRCIOUS” was my way… “HOW FEMINIST” could I be… “HOW IRRESPONSIBLE” am I….
Bcoz, the day I pack my bag…I would have made the
final decision…As my journey is a new phase in my remaining days…
I want to go away to erase a past…
I want to go away to sour up free…
I want to go away to live a life that I want…
I want to go away to cut off from sacrifices…
I want to go away to seek my long lost happiness…
I want to go away to love and be loved… myself and my life…
Without the fear of the world…
5 comments:
I did choose a Hindu pilgrimage for my solitude and my life changed for good. Here, my question is that is it destiny that compel few people to embark their journey on less traveled road or is it their freewill that make them take this brave decision.
But yes it has been 4 years down the line after that decision and I would say that by this time, I have come to become strong and would like to face the challenges rather than finding en escape.However, there is no right or wrong thought about this and it all depends on situation to situation.
@ Carya...
True; more of a situation to situation. As for me, I would prefer doing something without depending on anybody or being responsible for anything or anybody. Going for a pilgrimage with a group might not be an option in this case. Else, these group travels wud have worked... ;)
As for ur question if it is destiny... I feel its a mix... Destiny with their will...the path that they walked till date cud drag them to the stage of feeling to make a walk out...but then their will shud be strong enuf to make it happen...
Thanks all for passing by and dropping ur views...
Interesting thought. More than once I had this thought but I also have a thought what if go to that place and then find out that wasn't the place for me. Coming back wouldn't be an option and survival there would also become a challenge.
So my thought is why should I go anywhere. I will remain here and try to find some meaning and happiness in the midst of chaos. Or at least I will try. So here is a thought for you...
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