Struck by the most dreaded weapon...Is it???

You must be wondering, where have I been, for the past few days...Why there wasn't any blogs or news from me...Why no more of those boring stories...Why this long silence...Not bcoz I had nothing to say...Not bcoz I was devoid of any subject / topic to blabber on...Rather the past week could have been the most busiest day in my blog...but then, still I stayed silent...Why???Was it that I didn't feel like getting on to the system and type something...Was it bcoz of that lazy feeling that was not giving any mood to confine myself to do something...You will know the reason at the end of this blog...

If you remember, just a week back, I told you, that for the time being, I got saved...but not this time...If it was 6 last time, this time it was 5 of us...who got the GET OUT letter...uhm..true..how much ever sympathetically and caringly they give us the bad news, the one word meaning for the whole stuff is GET OUT....lol!!! Something that I have been fearing for past few months finally happened...Yes...Finally, I too got struck by the most dreaded weapon of 2009...Recession...I too got that "love letter"...The letter informing me that my valuable service is no longer required by my company...They can manage the work without me...The Redundancy Letter...It was something that I was expecting from more than six months...not becoz I had no faith in my working ability...but bcoz I knew what was the current situation of the world and market...Today or tomorrow, when the company can no longer bear the expenses of salaries of all its staff, the company has to say NO to some...and somehow, luck would play its trick here, to decide who would stay back and who wouldn't...Luck helped me till last week...but not any more...Luck left me for that one moment and the letter got prepared with my name ON...

When this fear of losing job started, I used to think...what would I do, if I got that dreaded letter...I used to tell my mom, "I would faint..I would cry...I might go into a depression..."...Not because I loved my job...lol!!!..but because of the consequences it might have...With a big loan to be paid off...jobless meant moneyless...moneyless means Installment defaults...and that meant TENSION...grrr...I just was scared every moment, feared WHAT IF....but when it really happened, to be frank, suddenly a smile came across my lips...I just lturned to the other Unlucky guy from my office and we both started laughing...God knows, why we did that...but when the BOSS was very sympathetically saying sorry for giving us such a bad news, we both were laughing...and I said..."Hey, never mind..You don't have to be sorry...It's not your fault...Just keep in mind..If any job openings come across you, please let us know..."...That made all five of us laugh out...and we shaked hands and left the room...We were Job Less now...

Suddenly, I felt a big pound of weight going off from my heart...I felt much lighter at heart....I felt just the opposite of what I expected...I was calm and cool...Then I knew, what mental tension I have been going through last few months due to this fear of losing job...and now..no longerdoes I have any such fear...I no longer had any job to loose...I was cool...haaaaa...!!! The moment brought in a big feeling of Optimism in me...I have been working for quite some years now...I need some rest now...and the best part was...As the Redundancy compensation, the company would be paying 2 months salary...Sooo....????

"I am currently on a 2 months paid vacation..(so I doesn't have to worry about my loan installment for next 2 months) ... I am planning for a job change (U see, that's pride, lol!!!)...I am sure, within this two months, I would get a good job..a better one...that job which I would love to do...So why worry....(That is "Grapes are Sour", hehe!!!)...With this optimistic thought, I happily came home with the most dreaded letter, no longer dreaded for me...It was a boon that took off all the tension I had for months...I knew, if God closes one door on you, not 9 but 1000 other doors would open for you...You just need to find the right door and go in...I am just going to do that...Find the right door..."

So, even after being so optimistic..then why this silence for the past week...Dont worry friends..I wasn't on any depression...I was just enjoying the rest period I got, the unexpected vacation...I was Sleeping my head out...staying awake late night watching movies that I missed, not worrying to keep the alarm ON for the next day early morning...Let me just relish these personal treats for the first few days before I start again on the Job Hunt and get back to my old routine.....