Bribing the Almighty...

Touch wood, things in my life r going in a normal way with not much negative stuffs to worry about …the back pain and the allergy issues do disturb me at times..but I can manage them now, as I am emotionally happy…yipeeeee…Do u remember myself talking to u all about my belief in Astrology…uhmm…these r the moments, when my belief gets stronger…Hey, Dint I tell u about my encounter with the Astrologer during my vacation 2 months back???Oho…I missed that…I shdnt have…I know, many of u doesn’t really have much belief in such things…but I would wanna stick to my personal choice…OK???

So, as u all know, last June, was the month I had this new job offer and I was almost happy…but something was bugging me inside that I couldn’t believe that, ATLAST, I gonna get out of that environment…with much better prospects… Something in me was not letting me be HAPPY and my friend was continuously assuring me…”WHY WORRY..SEE, EVERYTHING IS FINE…U GOT THE OFFER, U SIGNED THE CONTRACT…NOW U GO FOR UR VACATION AND WHEN U COME BACK U START AFRESH AT THE NEW PLACE…”…True…but, something wasn’t right…I felt…My Sixth Sense maybe…

Exactly 1 day before I was flying off for vacation, a call from my HR (my old company)…. The tone was not so encouraging… OUTLINE… ‘I can’t leave the company…atleast for another 2 months…and also I can’t go on leave during my Notice period…I can utilize my leave balance, maybe during the 2nd month of my notice period…’…NOWWWW…I was devastated…my New company wanted to me to start with them ASAP…and these people wont let me go before 2 months…I was lost…I felt, I am losing my present job and also the new job offer…I was like almost pleading while I requested the HR to help me sort it out with much damage…hmmm…Anyways, thanks to the HR Director…she asked me to go on leave as I had some Doctor’s appointments too to take care of…

But, the uncertainty on my job front was eating me throughout… That’s what I had mentioned in one of my earlier post… I felt, Now ONLY God could help me…I literally stepped into the Temples with weeping hearts… (u can understand what big a trauma I was in, then…)…Not a single person around me ever realized that…As I always had those smiling, laughing stature…Why make them worry, that’s what I always followed…So naturally, Temples were the only resort for me to outpour my emotions, fears and sorrows…Hoping, he, the almighty would help me out…

I went to each place…Enquiring to every person at the temple, for the different rituals that I could do to remove all obstacles in my life…for any special prayers to remove tensions from my life…and what not…Literally, I was bribing God, the almighty…IF U HELP ME WITH THIS, I WOULD DO THIS and THAT…hmm…I thought of it in that way…AM I DOING WRONG by taking up this way…Can gods be bribed…

Uhm… Anyways…whatever it was… He was my final Hope…and I decided to leave everything in his hands… Somewhere deep inside, I kept on giving him different Offers…”IF this…then that…”… I offered any rituals that was considered auspicious at every temple I visited…Prayed soo hard…I felt better..but not Best…As I stood in front of those Idols of my Spiritual Beliefs…I was literally talking to them..as if I was to my own mother…

“God, u know na..what is happening…Its too troublesome for me..Pls do smthing, na…I cant take this tension anymore…I don’t wanna end up losing my new job…it’s a good one…Sort it out…Soon…before I return after my vacation..solve the problems…OK???”

And so on went the One-sided conversations…As I exited each of those temple doors, I turned and looked at them…as if to remind them one last time NOT to forget my issue…hmmm…and it was at the steps of one such temple…I found him..or lemme say…

HE FOUND ME…